tired, alone and sick. as strange as it might sound i'm happy within this status for today. after being around 17 and a half thousand people plus the other thousands of girls at school, i am happy to just be around a population of one. not much noise around the house other than my mum having tea parties with just one other friend is all like sweet sweet nothingness to my ears. i awoke with a fever this morning and no voice which gives me another reason to bask in my own company. it's all sugary bliss to me! and as for this weekend i will be delving into more quality time with the one and only, hopefully focusing on my latest art project for school and maybe catch up with an old friend. i'm trying to toss up between the two peers but am leading towards the one who has the deepest connection with someone very important to my soul.
so relaxed and brought together as one being. i haven't felt this calm for a long while. yes everything might not be completely perfect parralel lines but the gap between myself and reality is moving closer and closer.
with arrows pointing to next year my stomach feels a little upside-down yet full of happy butterflies at the same time. such an adrenalin right now! well i still have 8/10 weeks left of school forever. plenty of time to plan and re-plan... as easy as it was to write that sentence it's not that easy to beleive it.
all in all i'm having a nice day with the enjoyment of one's self. i feel like Virginia Wolf saying something like that. maybe i am her? too bad i'm afraid of drowning.
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