it's getting later into the evening and colder into the atmosphere. sitting in my room by my self doesn't really help the scenery. although the level of noise is so still it's unbeleivable. am in a very strange state of mind this afternoon. a little bit today but more so now. i don't think i can explain it.. i suppose i'm just recognizing how i'm becoming older everyday as apose to every year. i think differently on seperate subjects of everyday life, and how those answers must be come by. when looking into the mirror i am seeing the same face i've seen ever since i can remember, but i am starting to notice this "older" sense of myself that i haven't seen before. the side of me where i think i could be ready for anything at the moment. "expect the unexpected." and i'm not feeling too phased by many things lately either. i think i'm begining to just think out of things to the point where i don't notice how i knit through my sentences in a conversation. seems like i've been coming across to others as things i definately do not intentionally like to be seen as. it's not the best moment.
i suppose i'm just so sick of this place right now i'm wanting to be somewhere else in the world. literally anywhere right now sounds better. i don't feel like i've been invited into an inviting room for so long. that out of place feel. maybe it's just here.. or maybe i'm changing. whatever is it, i do hope it's all for the better because right now, i honestly think, i cannot be bothered or phased to change for anyone. am i lazy? i think i'm just tired.
1 comment:
are you lazy? are you tired?
no no no no you just think way too much and way too hard little miss
xxx
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