what're you going to do?

after a huge weekend full of bad substance i've figured i really need to let go off this so called "escaping reality" phase i've been going throught since late last year....

not only for my physical healthy but my mental health also.

my widening mind is the best thing i have to offer, and when that's gone what else have i left?

i keep wishing my life away thinking i'm so much older than i already am.

should i be changing the people i hang out with? how can i make such an accusation like that when they are so tightly sewn into my heart.... it's like changing your friends is changing you. do i really want to change myself? and is it for the better?
i just don't know who i want to please anymore.

I have been so so content with the way things have gone this year..

but at the same time, have i been seeing the real light?

or just the "rose coloured glasses" one?

i've put so many questions out for my self to answer but i just dont know where to start on how to answer them......

cant even decide if they all could just be retorical.

so at the end of things all i gotta do is put my priorities first;

find a place with zoe, save some money and hense forth to even more hapyness.......

this entry was just to make my brain a bit less cluttered.

its' so fried.