it made me realise how much i love this special person, and how much he fits into my life at the moment, and hopefully many more small moments to come.
later in the afternoon i had a disagreement with my family and all i wanted to do was get away. and since it was pouring with rain and i had no car i wasn't sure what to do. also my main bestfriends are away in school, so i didnt have many options for people to talk to. but how could i have forgotten; the one i should've turned to first.
later in the afternoon i had a disagreement with my family and all i wanted to do was get away. and since it was pouring with rain and i had no car i wasn't sure what to do. also my main bestfriends are away in school, so i didnt have many options for people to talk to. but how could i have forgotten; the one i should've turned to first.
toby came to my rescue around 7.30. he took me to coffee in broadbeach at starbucks coffee house. we both had a mocha - venti size. and talked for 1hour and 30 minutes straight about current problems, situations, thoughts, recollections of memories, and further plans ahead of us. and it was then, at that very moment about my plans for next year, that i realised i very much wanted him to remain in that picture frame of us. he seemed distant once the topic was brought up though... i soon became distant also..
as much as i have discussing relationships with the actual person you're in a relationship with, i really wanted to discuss the matter and take it further into something more serious. because to be quite frank, he seems to becoming something very serious in my heart.
he didn't seem to want to talk about it much so we changed topic.
on the drive home all i could think about was how greatful i felt that i had someone to talk to about almost anything, and how much i was so sure on how i wanted this person to not leave my side. i wanted to say it out loud, louder than the rain hitting the windscreen, how much i wanted him to stay just that little bit longer in my heart.
if i keep telling myself how much i need him then hopefully he will start getting the same recognition. and usually we both do have the same mind frames.
i mean in the end, a soulmate; well who knows what that means anymore.
all i know is, i kind of hold something metaphoric to that right now.
well atleast for tonight.
the stitches to my heart are being sewed up with every beat of his heart for me.
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