a Shadow of a Fantasy "self"

only last week did i come apon the epiphany of who i really was, what i really am, who i'm not sure i want to be.
for my main piece in art this year is all about the process or concept of alchemy. or alchemy as a bases concept. i chose my concept to be about the alchemic process of what makes up me. the two split parts of my hidden personality that when brought together equal me as a whole self. these two sides of me are called: Fantasy and Shadow self.

my Fantasy self is all about how i really am or how i really see myself. only the closest people in my life see this side of me as it is something very close and intimate within my past and how i really see the world i live in. by bringing about the small fundimentals that equal up this child-like image i portay to myself can help me understand what manbe i do need to grow up.. the main thing within the series of images is the pink gown i'm wearing. i've had the dress since i was young and running around pretending to be an adult. well now i'm trying to persure the opposite by wearing the dress is trying to rekindle the childlike environment and thoughts to become that inner child i once was..
here's a few shots on the concept:













My shadow self was all about my "other half" of the archytype of the parts of you that you do not neccesarily like or like other people to see as they are your' "negative attributes. i haven't taken a full series of this one yet but i did mess around with what i thought could portray this "shadow like" side of image of me..








In the final product i will be explaining on a basis of alchemy, the process of achytypes which brings about this one whole persona of me. by conducting my fantasy self and my shadow self leads to the conslusion of a "whole self" which is the archytype of who you are as one.
I think by doing this progress is has made me realise what i need to accept as myself and how i really should portray my better self qualities/ embracing my personlity. art definately is one of the most personal subjects you can go into, and as i one day hope to pursue under the concept of "artist" i see them as some of the most bravest occupations we have on this world.