the aristoCATS

the weekend of the 15th, 16th and 17th was pretty amazing and out of control. actually more out of control that amazing.
flew home to see the friends.. and their soon to be boyfriends. seems like i'm the only one who can see right through them. "love is a drug." besdies that went shopping with Brendan on thursday night. picked me up from the airport and had a look around for a nice suit for him to wear to my nice little formal event. we also went shopping on friday for soo long. that was when we finally found a nice three piece suit. although i swear he is going to look better than me on the day... need to get something like patent leather shoes and clutch with big black shandeleer earrings. wish i could go back to the 60's....

yeah the weekend, on friday night it was completely out of control. went to the valecictory party. kind of had to jump the fence with Grace, Shaye and Marty but was so worth it. saw everyone i wanted to see and just felt so good. i felt classy with my platic wine glasses and my Grace's and I's goon.. mention to realise how much i missed everyone, i swear i was smiling probably about all night long. met up with Morgan later and we cought a taxi into town and bought chocolate milk from the bakery and the dude wouldn't give us a straw. we were in utter devistation and walked off. the rest of the night i had left my memory at th part so on sautyday:
slept and showered at my house then went over to maddis, brought Mariya with me and met up with Grace, Georgia who cam over shortly, and the lovely Shaye. we all decided to go to this open house party. bought three classy sacks of goon and made our way over. some photos are absolutely hideous and I am afraid to say that i was in the worst mood that night and seriously did no care how much of a prostitute i looked like..

Thanks to Graces great photography skills actually.

Thanks to Georgias great photography skills.

Thanks to... i don't actually know who took this one!

Rex and Fag(L)

ST URSULAS COLLEDGE gates of doom.





















it was those points of saturday night that was actually fun.. just after that when we hitches over to Morgans, with some old chick who thought we were schoolies and tried to give us $50 for survival, the rest of the night after that was shit.
next morning had to leave Maddi's at about 9.30 to fly back down to the GC and have another horrid week of exams. am now sick again and just want to hurry up and go back to England since my life has meant to belong there for so long.

art art ART!

aaaaaahhhh! i know how twoo weeks of boring exams. and to top it off i'm way too ill. but am flying up to the coast for friends and family on thursday till sunday and then then another week of exams. and as soon as you know it i have my presentation ball! have my dress and everything, just need shoes and that junk. also need an after party dress. so degrating. bringing good friend Brenden as my date. he's funny and from South Africa so i think he'll fit in fine for the night.

AND for everything to do with school lately, have just finished my major art piece fot semester two in visual art. did a three piece series of "Wearing my Heart on my Sleeve." heres the few pictures i presented...









hopefully will get the results back soon because its seems to be the only thing i've tried hard on this year concerning the topic of art.
the heart i had to buy for that was soo weird. when i went to the butcher the guy looked highly amazed as i asked for an animal heart the size of a human heart? he thought i was an absolute creep and asked "So do you want like kidneys or something with that?" wasn't even that funny. took only 45minutes to take 100photos for the piece and just ended up with three in the end. thanks to Fallon and Natasha they turned out well.

so stoked about this weekend as am going home to see friends. there will be a huge after party for the older kids finishing school FOREVER. everyone in town will be there and will be a great way to just see everyone at once. i miss my friends so much.

5 WEEKS 'TILL EUROPE

it is five weeks till i'm off to Europe. going to be unbeleivably amazing since haven
t been since 2004. am being reunited with family and friends. mostly imparticular my big brother James who i haven't seen for two years. he's living in Brick Lane at the moment. so stoked.
the plan for the trip so far is Brisbane to L.A. stay there for a week or so with good friend Antonia. then fly from L.A. to London, will hopefully be picked up by James and start the next two and a half weeks going nuts there. xmas eve we're driving down to Devon to see grandma and long lost cousins. then five days after that am staying in France for new year. after that fly back to England till middle of January and then fly direct to New York City for a pit stop and back to Brisbane. sll sounds to daunting but great at the same time.


well to my weekend, stayed in Brisbane with a friend (Lucinda) and her older sister (Rebekah). was so good, we ate such big meals. did some long hours shoppping and i finally found my dress for the presentation ball that is in three weeks. it's by Thurley and an ivory white cream colour. just need to get shoes, hair appointment, make-up appointment. again all so daunting but alll exciting at the same time.

speaking of events. Lucinda had her restaurant de`beu. Leanne, Fallon and myself attended. Lea and i took some funny photos of us being the silly people we are.








I want Leanne to be an asian model!!
Vivians Model Management LOOK OUT!

act your age not your dress size

a private weekend. i didn't get to do what i absolutely wanted but i guess family has to pay off sometimes. Muffin got surprised with a one night trip to Sydney and watch some play at the Opra House with dad. quite exciting although i would have loved to have went with her.
my weekend was also suppose to consist of Brisbane with Lucinda and look for these coture type thing gowns. i really don't think i'm going to succeed in this topic. am wanting to get my make-up done at either Bobby Brown or Chanel. really not too sure. also would have been great if marty could've came with me. already have darling Grace but both would be pretty great.

NATASHA or Nataly as i call her has been a great friend to me throughout the first three weeks of this term and the last two weeks of last term. she' is from Bukerest, Hungary, Eastern Europe. absolutely gorgeous and has a great sense of humour. we took a few photos the other night. good laugh.








am hopefully flying home this weekend for Muffins amazing birthday party. will hopefully be alot of champagne. if not then i will just crash at my house at GC and just incute Lucinda, Lea and Nataly over and we can just order in and pretend to be filthy rich in my small yet satisfying lap pool that looks over our carbonated city.

california dreaming

i miss the 60's♥

doingbird # twelve

It's now over the holidays break that lasted about 2 minutes.. back at school and already in the first week i am upto no good with chock loads of homework of sorts already. not to mention i have "Presentation Ball" upcoming for me. meaning some extravagant gown i have to find since people here live their life on the deep thirst of retail and it's threads and frocks.
seeing friends on the short break was great. don't think i was sober once and when i was i was thinking about how i didn't want to be sober.

love is a drug and drugs can be loved.




Seeing Grace was probably the best part. being one of my great girlfriends and my better or worse half we get along great and i see her as very dear thing to my heart. hope i get to see her soon.

i bought the magazine "doingbird" the other day at Boarders in Brisbane. it seems really good. the quality is like a book and i just want to keep it nice and clean. it's sitting beside me and i'm going to devour it right now.
hopefully the weeekend should be interesting and i find a nice little dress to encase myself in for that stupid ball.

i'm excited for bed now.
i'm exxcited for you.

i want to be someone who takes pictures of wonderful things!

again another stressful post about what's happening in school work and stuff. but i just came across the most coolest creaitve arts course. it's here on the GC and am really starting to consider it. i would take photography, interior/industrial design, creative arts, english extention enterpretation of art and so much more! am so stoked and think it's so worth it. i'll go for a cev II which will get me one more course close toa diploma and i can hopefully automatically get into WhiteHouse Institute of Design in Sydney. everything is just makeing me so syked about life. although the work load this term was diobolical it was still a challenge i probably need to take anyway.

here's a an image i've used for one of my creative art tasks. it's on personal portraits. i hope it goes well.



OH yeah, tomorrow i go back up the coast for a bit. see family and friends for a week. RELAX! then week after that going back down the coast to see friends and maybe some more family. will also do some short trips back and forth to Brisbane.
cannot wait to see Mariah, Tash and Grace this week also. they have been making me smile lately being it as such a hectic week for me. pass the vodka!

status: (just breathing)

"i'll go back to the 60's and live like i don't care, and beleive in too many substances of light and dreams. i'll go back and i'll fall in love. i'll live the life that i always wanted, a life i can breath in.

yeah you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me..

Have seriously been having the most hectic full two weeks lately. so much has happened and i barely know where to begin!

firstly, two weeks ago was Kristen's birthday/Leanne's. we had a huge party for them at Lea's house with all of her asian friends and us few white kids. had the best time, but also the worst since the amount of alcohol i consumed... never have had that bad of a hangonver that friday morning..... here's a few pictures of the night.

Leanne and Kristen were so beautiful!












was really a great night. i'm not in many photos and same with Lucinda as we were too "gone silly" at the time to be in them.

also that following weekend we just hung out anf ate asian food.
oh yeah i got a fringe! doesn't really suit me that well tho since i look like a 5 year old..... but it's not as horrible as appose to other peoples unfortunate hair.

then when i got back on sunday i was really sick. i think i have a stomache ulsor... pretty sure due to stress and stuff liek that. i went to the docotr and he thinks it might be that. i hope it is cause i've had one before and i an treat it and stuff.
but yeah i have so much work at the moment don't know how i'm coping. seriously a mental breake down is coming over me. wouldn't be the first time either.....

well last weekend was heaps boring. Lucinda dragged me to the fate but i ended up sort of meeting/seeing Zach of Big Brother! he looked the exact same as he does on TV!! was so great. wish i could have talked to him or something. he seems like a really lovely person.

ahh this week, yeah it horrible. no one to talk to about anything that's going on with my life. i miss my real friends so much. not that my friends here aren't cool cause they are really cool, they just aren't my old friends i guess. so this week is hectic with parents hating on eachother. i feel sorry for the two little ones.
cannot wait till moving back to ENGLAND. big brother and i will be reunited just like old times.... i miss him so much. only person i love the most within my family circle.

i just want to go home.....

wednesdays

last weekend was boring.
monday, tuesday was boring; biology feilds trips.
today it just stressful.
working, education, time management.
i hate wednesdays.

It's just some lie, they slept beside.

had most amazing weekend. like cannot even start to explain. flew home for the weekend on thursday night. spend friday melting with friends (who took the day off) watched movies and slowly but surely mae it to tashas for the weekend to come.
friday night eas absolutely crazy. went to Johnny's house for a few drinks.. well not a few quite alot but was still good. was packed with people, alot who were really funny but wanted to start fights with 'car dudes.' whilst Tasha went missing i was just haning with Mya and Matt who i swear are in so must lust not love. they're sitll great. Grace was a complete/COMPLETE mess. wasn't even funny at one point, she was so crazy. almost got us kicked out. but was all still funny in the end. i trashed Grace's white top ahaha. (i'll wash it). we finally got home at around 4 and i crashed at 5.

saturday consisted of sleeping and feeling sick. that night was so amazing. went to Villiage Art Festival and just partied there as hippies. was so great. Tasha and i let some dude spike our drink right infront of us. i really think it was that extreme alcoholic stuff that's green. well it definately did the trick and i was left with halusinating for the resst of the night and allday sunday. met the most amazing guy, Ira. really felt as if we had a connection. he is a muscian and has beeen to America. i can remembed other stuff i just left my memory at the festival. yeah after having a great night we all decided to leave as it was 1.30AM. Grace decided to go missing and we just ran around looking for her for two fucking hours and then cam to find she was at Tashas the whole time. pretty off it, but atleast she was alright and not raped and murdered like we thought she was...

woke up sunday with no voice and a headache to remember. mum was a horrible person to me that day. i had pretty much 2 hours sleep and heaps sick. flew back to GC at 10 and got there are 2!

and from last night to day i have been feeling disgusting.
i wish my weekend was just some lie i could sleep beside.

that wasn't water in that water bottle...

I'd Stop the World and Melt With You

seriously can't wait to hang with this cool chick.

"they're China's problem now..."

this weekend was good but hard working also.
spent friday night watching the old "Blue Crush" and "Marie Antoinette" with the girls in the house. was good and intimidating to watch skinny island girls surf waves and look hot and shit. saturday went well as we just watched some more movies and did a little but of work on Ancient Studies. saturday night we watched "The Simpsons Movie." was sooo good. the only good part was the begining. the rest was funny but could have been better. am inlove with Lisa's Irish Boyfriend/ohhhhh yeah.

this week am planing to get hair done. fringe, colour, nose pierced? just get Fallon to do that one ha! should be an interesting week. got a picture of the colour hair type i will add to mine:



and on thursday i'm flying up the coast to visit 'home' for a few days and catch up with old friends. definately going to be a loose weekend. really miss those guys.
also got to get heaps of study work that weekend :( aaaaand that will probably wreck everything.... but otherwise cannot wait till then xoxo

friends and magazines

this morning has definately been in the spirit of boring.
i really want to read my bible books of fashion and other stuff in magaines girls like.. yeah i hope i get to hang out with Fallon this weekend at Byron...

speaking of other shit things happennig in life; leanne and kiristen are planning a birthday party thing for next weekend which i'm not too happy about because i'm suppose to be flying up the coast to see some friends and family for the weekend. really want to go to leanne's but i'm not soo sure which option to choose. i'm having to choose friends between friends and family on the side? well this morning in a mathematics tuturial figured out that i have i v. important english/literatue/poetry oral/speech thing to do on the monday after the weeknd, so i'm thinkng if i fly up that weekend i will definately not get around to putting any work towards it and will be away for thusday,friday,saturday,sunday. but if i go to leanne's i will just be gone, friday to sunday.. meaning i will have more time to go back to school and do it..... well i know which option sounds better but so make the decision..
i've heard of friends over boys, family over friends, eduation over social life... but what about "friends over friends"???

p.s. splendour bendour

an extra post of how i thew my life away this weekend.
pretty much gave away my splendour ticket last week...
i know.

i would have loved to have heard these 'horrific' cats.

razzles and no dazzles!

this weekend was mostly fullfilled with nothing but boring and some more boring. spent most of it with the lovely Lucinda but even she could not bring about the exciting feelings of the weekend. friday night was pretty good tho. we ordered two huge pizzas and two huge diet coke and coke coke. ate so much but was all so good. watched the movie 'Hot Fuzz' or something like that. pretty good, good enough to have a few laughs.

saturday consisted of watching alot/alot of movies. "Little Children' was so heavy. not only the title takes a gasp but some of the scenes in it are gastly. but it was still good on some levels. that saturday night also consisted of movies and slowly ended towards mid-night with the second 'Pirates of the Carribean.' also watched that night was the RUBBUSH movie 'Slither'! was pretty much not only vomiting from some of the actors but the movie all together was not so.... good.


sunday was the only slight highlight we had. went off to Pacific Fair to find all the sales were pretty much done with and there was nothing remotely good left. so Lucinda and i basked on lollies and cheap magazines which lead to us discovering 'Razzles.' which were an exciting thing to us as we saw them as a great oportunity to feel as if we were in a movie just like 'Suddenly 30' which they too eat 'Razzles' in. so after buying them and eating the sour sweets which slowly turn into a gum like substance we realised they were not to razzle dazzle. after moving on to eating 'Fads' for the rest of the day and pretending we were HXC smokers.
ohhhhh yeaaaaahh. i think i'll always love fads...

smoke or choke?

today at school some friends of mine were cought with a left over cigarette but on the floor of their room by the cleaner. pretty much think they could get kicked out or something if they were able to find their life time supply of packets over packets of cigarettes and liters in their hand bags and sneaky spots. we made plans this afternoon to make sure they don't find them if they do plan to do some 'FBI' search of their room after study. i don't think they'll get kicked out if they dont find the rest but if they do.. i don't see how you could get into so much trouble. i mean who doesn't smoke now anyway? we all know it's 'bad' but it's become to be a neccesity into everyday life for most people. i think we're still in the same place we started 1883 when cigarettes were the biggest rage and everyone did it. well people still do. they're still promoted in movies, newpaprers, tv, parents? the tabaco insutry is everywhere and will remain everywhere till "the day we die!"
it all fascinates me how we know what we're doing is so bad for our body but are still able to do it? i know i am always going to say when put in that position it "We only live once." well yeah we do, but i know i want to live long-ish. whatever it comes to i hope to never get addicted. i see the cigarette as an accesory and worst comes to worst yor bestfriend.
i hope my two bestfriends wont have to take the crime for this silly role of paper and grass.

not a sense

i feel like i don't have much control over my life anymore.. now that i've been at boarding school everything's been set to a schedual. all the time. literally. you'd think living on the Gold Coast would be something to look forward to. a huge change from where you used to live. more freedom? well it has come to my suprise that it's nothing like that. i seriously think it's only good to hang out here if you're over 18. it's so over-rated here it only makes sense that you're a legal age to actually have fun here. my friends think i'm lucky and all that and don't beleive it can be horrible here. i'm sick of this schedualed life i have. i mean fair enough after school we have study time and all that but now having my weekends being taken over, that's just too far for me. coming to a new school that makes you strip your face of make-up and hair of nots is very hard for me. i'm not saying i'm vain in some respects i'm just not used to it.. not used to not exagerating my features... not bringing out my confidence in me. they say school is all uniform. uni meaning everyone's the same. well fine with the uniform, that's just clothing but not my physical features. i just feel stripped of all i want. the one thing i felt i used to be able to control was make-up.. now i can't even do that anymore. my clothes are monitored by them both in and outside school. as well as what i eat, what i do in my spare time, what i do with my life and family! it's all controlled by them. i feel that i must be wasting my life by doing what they want with me life, because it's not their life it's mine.
I wish i was young again. back when nothing else mattered but cartoons in the morning before school and wearing my favourite sailormoon shoes to emily's house.

a time

So i was born and half raised in England, Hammersmith, West London. i would have to say they were the best memories. living with my mother(sonia), dad(baz), older brother(james),younger sister(lorelei), and younger brother(louis) was suprisingly good. a sense of rush was nothing knew to us. i miss it. mum was teaching performing arts and working for the most booming fashion photographers of london as a make-up artist. dad was a ski instructor in the french alps and across whistler in the US and Canada, also running fitness pools in Brighton. they were both on tight scheduals but it al worked out.

1999 my littlest brother was born(louis). it was also the year that dad came up with the idea of moving to Australia forever. he called it "the island down under." it was all quite new to us but as we didn't quite know where Australia was (only knew of in history class where the convict went and captain cook made discoveries of a different race) but we were all excited the same.

it was exciting here..