21st best weekend!

I must say the weekend that has just passed and graced my presence was certainly one to remember forever. it was possibly one of the most glamorous. and not meaning suave but just full of decent people who live life for all the right reasons.

friday evening was where it all began:

after having fallon dropped off at mine we just chilled in my room till baz came home and droped us off at mitchy's. this was when the lovely toby came by and we drove to varsity for a short roll and watch mitchy, lucas and jasper have a jam at this very interesting house called "the Music Pit." we stayed there till about 7 and then headed off to broudbeach, just me toby mitchy and fallon. couldn't wait to get to Chiang Mai Thai - my new favourite restaurant. everything is traditionally decorated to a T. i always fel like i go to thailand itself when eating there. so the four of us got a table and ordered THAT much food fallon and i felt like we were going to pop. then we had dessert in berleigh at Cold Rock ice-creamery. so good. after filling ourselves up with even more food toby and i dropped fallon and mitchy of at mitchy's humble abode, then toby and i just went back to his where we said goodnight to everyone and slept like two rocks in love.

saturday morning was quite interesting: toby decided he did want to go to brisbane and skate so i was dropped off at home very early saturday morning and wouldn't see him till that afternoon. sadly i sat at home drinking tea and reminising about, well nothing. i was suprised by kaysee, dyl, mitchy and fallon around 12.30 as they came over and insisted i came with them to pac fair. or as fallon says,

"smack fair."

whilst spending most of the afternoon there we drank doc. pepper and bought some cheap gold jewelry from DIVA. around 2.30 we were all at kaysee's new house in palm beach and awaited toby to come pick us up with ryan to go to the apartment we were hiring out in surfers for the night. once getting there we al headed upstairs and started to get ready for the big night ahead of us. whilst the boy's ended up their fillings of alot of beer, mitchy fallon and i went to mitchy's sister's Shona's 21st birthday at main beach, and toby and ryan went to Rochell's birthday in surfers. during out night out at the italian retaurant filled with champagne and shrimp treats here are some beautiful captured moments:

Like i said: possibly one of the most glamorous weekends of my life so far. was around the best people with the best minds frames. what more could i ask for in this wonderful life i lead.

a recollection to last saturday: byron, love me, love-me-not

last weekend at byron really was a memory to treasure forever. and for that i'm glad i brought with me my cannon eos 300 to capture, savour the moments of that oh-so perfect weekend thaat was born upon our souls.

here a few shots taken:

Of all the weekends that felt the most "beautiful" i would have to say this one comes close to the best. with the most amazing people who i absolutely adore and love. and hope to be around for a while longer. much longer.

a new addition needed.

starting the day off to a nice start. the weather is rainy and my bed is so cosy. all that's missing is these latest collections by Alexander Wang that SHOULD be in my closest.

i was scrolling through his webpage yesterday during a multimedai exam and realised i could not live without his amazing frocks.

it almost does me head in how someone can creat something so diverse yet fits so well together as an ensemble. and fit to well into what i vision myself being encased in on an everyday basis. bring on the nylon!

update: time 1:15AM

after a very long, very emotional phone call to an 'old' friend so to speak, i have come to the conclusion that i will be "ok."
being reminded of how much i have going for me and how much i have been through to see through the future ahead as something amazing and worth living for.



scratch my ear darling, paint my eyes lilac, my skin's grey, but my angels harking for you. darling day light's ahead and so is the night. the night where you are the moon, so get up now, get ahead of yourself, the sun, the earth.

goodnight.

strangled by my past and my future hope.

tonight wasn't the best night.

a hit in the cheek by my past; and a hard one at that. left a huge 'x' shaped dent into my skull not to mention my heart aswell, only a litte one there though. i feel as though i've let go, although sometimes when the pebbled been dropped it leaves ripples. and these ripples move outwards in all directions. you hope to god the rippled filled with the evilness roll in the opposite direction. well this evening they came crashing into mine, and kissed me over my head where i just could not get up. but luckily enough i have someone to pick me up, wipe the sand out of my eyes, and pump the salty water out of my lungs. for him i am greatful and know i don't need to worry about these ripples. because with what i have now, what i bear in my heart, beats something much more fearce with more strength than any asshole could bring to the table.

fuck the ripples, bring on the rocks.

happy-life-day to me!

These last two weeks have been simply stupendous. full of optimistic minds, cheesy grins, piercing eyes set out to aim at the sky as their limit. having a new addition to my life at the moment is definately more than a luxury, it's lucky dip nominee. how i would never have thought to run into such a boy full of poetic phrases and such yummy intentions! this is where we recap on the weekend that just went by:

thursday evening toby came over for dinner. we watched 'Into the Wild' and ate crisps, chocolate, shapes and green tea all evening. as un healthy as it was, it felt just right for the heart. oh our melting hearts!

friday was a blur. not much happened at all. i set out for an early night due to saturday awaiting with a bag of goodies.

saturday i was awoken at quarter to six in the morning by toby and his little car cradeing mitchy as another passanger to join us on our venture to byron. where we were to meet fallon. the car ride went by very quickly. we had the wind on our side.

after arriving at fallons we scooped her up and drove into town. this was where the day went by so quickly. toby and i went off to the park and sat under the clouds; we spotted one that was shaped like an eagle. he played his guitar and i squirmed about how much of a good day i was having. mitchy and fallon then caught up with us and we watched toby do some skating. this was where fallon and i decided to take a million photographs on the grafitied cement hills. mitcy at this point was smoking all of fallons cigarettes and alot of beer. such a romantic coupled morning. by the afternoon we found outselves back at fallons where we indulged in some tea and went for a dip by the pool. way too cold for my liking. then after some silly lying around in the bedroom we decided to head back home on the highway before 6PM. we all said out goodbies to fallon and drove home in the silence of the sunset untill we came to KFC. this is where things got intersting... ofcourse toby and mitchy chose their famous enlarged meals with every type of fried chicken you could think of. i settled with my fries. i was full within the first 10 minutes. after dropping mitchy at home i decided to stay at toby's. luckily noomi was staying the night too, this got me all excited for the next day ahead of us. that evening we all have a few lagars out by the pool untill we all started to feel a bit funny. toby and i fell straight to bed, into sleep.
sunday was a day! up early again at 7.15! we were scurrying off on a skating experience. by a little after 8 we were at our first destination. noomi picked up a couple of flat whites from mcdonalds; they were actually quite decent. around a half hour of that the second destination was coming true. varsity skatepark would have been my favourite. full of the best people with the best intentions of love, life, and happiness. noomi and i sat along the sidelines of the cemented pathway full of woodenboards with wheels, oh and boys riding them. at the end of the day everyone ventured back to toby, lucas, and eli's house for another skate in the backyard along with a hopeful swim. noomi and i got into our bikinis but our sunburns were so severe we decided not to. we are smart when it comes to spontaneous decisions. so we drank water by the pool instead. and made some delicous penutbutter and honey sandwitches, along with a movie: Chocolat. i was not alout to talk once throughout this movie; as it was toby's new favourite. that evening feeling so tired we went home to mine and had dinner with the family. mum loves toby, its ridiculous. then he went home. then i got into bed to reminis about such a great weekend i had just encountered.

definately having new lovers in my life is one thing i feel so spoilt by. not only do i have one sewn into my heart but all the other ones connected to his. such a great gift, treat, jewel! as i lay in my bed last night i thought of what this could mean...

as the sky turns dark and the sun gets sucked behind the hills i see the moon begin to rise. the moon holds trust and honesty as it brightens out the sky's blanket with its piercing stars of beauty. you are the moon i wait for. and whether you're hiding thick between the clouds or shining like a slither of a 'c-shape', i know you're always there for me.
i guess i'd like to think i could be your shooting star; sweeping across the universe just to get a closer look at you, be near you, kiss your surface.

Dawson, Rose Dawson

This weekend went quite well. it was full of content and the smell of sweet sweet victory over the heart, soul and mind.
Friday night spent with Leanne and co. for her birthday. we went to Tapanyaki and finished off with starbucks. went home around 11.30 and awaited what golden events were to come the following day.

Saturday mum and i went to Nobby Beach to thirft store shop. bought a few items. mostly different coloured, over-sized blouses. oh and another black leather jacket. it's designed like a denim one but it's leather! quite the fashionable piece. that evening Toby came by around 6.30. we then went out to Thai around 8 and had THE best feast. although he found the entre to be very "spicey" (considering it was mild!) he did like the rest of his meal. and made sure he sincerely thanked the staff whenever they approached us with their nice intentions on the meals. around 9.30 we went to his and had some friendly treats with the family. Noomi was there with Lucas, that was a smile on many faces. whilst crawling into bed (with the boy coloured like rainbows) we watched the childhood film "Hook." whilst falling asleep to this lovely memoi, i remember how lucky i am to be on this earth surrounded by the best possbile people i could have asked for. nothing could tear away the smile from both my complection and soul.

Sunday consisted of cat napping in bed with a warm and very inviting cup of tea, then a very well made piece of toast with honey, enjoyed beside the pool, whilst Toby serenaded me with guitar string solos by him. this went on forever in my mind as i will never forget that moment. ever.
the rest of the day was relaxed without a care in the world. came home around 4.30 and enjoyed apple crumble with my family. fell asleep around 9. didn't have a dream last night. i don't need any more dreams right now. enough of them have come true.

i'm content.

"You have a raindrop running down your face just like a tear..."

Waking up this morning to the soft pattering of the rain on my window was definately a wishful thinking of never wanting to leave my bed.
Today was like a bucket. we were all scurrying around the rim of the bucket, trying to get to some form of direction of something that meant meaning to anyone. the bucket began filling with more and more water, getting closer to the rim. soon enough no one would have anywhere to go but over the edge of the bucket, into the unknown.
I know some people who's biggest fears are of the "unknown." i realised today i also fear it. but i am prepared for it to come.
Bring on fate!

back to the 29th!

As i haven't had the time to put in my weekend fairy tales i will as of now!

long weekend was present for a good one. spent thursday evening just at home with the family. friday morning lead on with the chill session in my mother's bedroom, reading fashion magazine, and gasping about the latest artists of the scene. all went well and good. friday evening consisted of going up to Brisbane with Georgia to meet up with Camilla, Lucy and Jaala, all to see the Picaso Exhibition at the GOMA along with a side music gig of new and rising band Yves Klein Blue. i must say the collection was great. with a wide mixture of french, italian, german, english artists it was definately a must see. knowing they were all once under the care of Pablo Picasso was just amazing. even the smallest things were framed and on display there: little sketch book drawings with indian inks and lead pencils as their mediums. all inspiring.

the performance YKB pulled up was a must see aswell. Michael surely knows how to entertain a crown or atleast grab their attention no matter how high or low he can jump. the rest of the badn was just as tantric with their bussing guitar strings and bellowing drumming, and let's just forget Michael's solo on the piano. so great. definately a night i will never forget. i also gabbed their album that they've had out for a few months. it consists of about 6/7 tracks of their choice. something definately to pick up soon.

But to one of the best experiences of my weekend was meeting with an old friend. in reality you wouldn't say "old" due to only meeting this fellow about two weeks ago, although he definately feels like someone i've had within me for a long long time. Tobias and i caught up around lunch time on saturday. we ventured into the wilderness of Broadbeach where we watched "The Edge of Love." as ridiculous as it sounds it was his idea. the films is a beautifully drawn love story, the film revolves around two feisty, free-spirited women, Caitlin Thomas and Vera Killick, Vera's husband William Killick, and the brilliant, charismatic poet Dylan Thomas who loves both women. Broken promises, passion, betrayal, the shadow of war and the constant threat of imminent death push the protagonists to THE EDGE OF LOVE. By no means a biopic in the traditional vein, the story explores the bohemian underworld of war-torn London, and the intimate complexities of two young couples whose lives and loves become dangerously intertwined.

So pretty much the film was great. around the late afternoon we then jumped into the small car with the bell on the dashbord and drove to Berleigh beach for some conversations on life. this lasted till about 6. we drove to his and traded stories with his family of our day. we ate fish and chips for dinner and watched "Donnie Darko" for desert. around 10 Lucas came home and we all had a cigarette together outside admist the cool musk night.
i went home around 11.30 and basked in my very large feather-cushioned bed and slept till the sun could shine no brighter through my window.
Sunday was pretty chil. i spent most of it listening to music and fighting with my sister.

this last week at school has been quite a brain-(metaphor). have had possibly one of the biggest exams i wil ever have in schooling. also considering it doesnt actually matter to me that much, i still felt the pressure. i ate about 20 minties in the last 48 hours. i'm all minted out!
But also very pleased and excited for the weekend.
Leanne's birthday, treats with Toby, thrift store shopping with me mum.

Who could ask for a better weekend ahead of them?!

today is not a good day...

today in the life of me is not the best. i'm primarily pointing towards my school life. pretty much have one heavy assignment on my shoulders that i could not/will not produce in an afternoon. i may aswell rip off all of my fingernails, peel away at my eyes, saw off my leg, and bite my tongue off. i may as well.. i hate how during 13 years of school it is said to be "your life". i dont want this horrible place to be my life. when i leave school it will be a major turning point. like the monkey on my back has finally ran into a fucking wall and is not returning. i will not miss any teachers, topics, subjects, versions of adolescence, maintreme students. i will not miss it. i'm am very content to be leaving and growing up into an adult. or atleast young adult. i am done with this schoolyard bullshit. sick of having melt-downs over the stupidest occasions and the mindless consumers within it.
i am ready for new people in my life. and i am prepared to do anything to complete that forever wanted invite. i do not care about this.

alone
alone
alone i am in this black, steel village i call "home".